The first month

Even though a month had passed, it still felt like it was yesterday...

The heartache have not subside, not even a single bit
Memories are still strong in my mind,
Feelings for you its still as strong as ever..

The person i am today is still the same person i am when i'm with you
It's just so hard to move on with life..

I always ask myself, 'What have i done wrong?'
Is it wrong to love you so much that i deserve how i'm feeling right now?


p/s: missing you like crazy!

Is it a sign?

First time in thousands of MahJong game..

Opened up the tiles and got 4 'feis'

WohoOOoo!!!!


p/s: was hoping that i could share the moment of joy with you...

Happy Chinese New Year!!

May the year of OX brings you and your family good health, good fortune and good times. Wishing all a new year, a bright and happy one.



p/s: missing those times when you come back from Malacca/Kajang just to spend time with me and all the gambling sessions...so much have changed since then.

Where?

Where is the Hubby i used to know?
It's been a long 4 months since i last saw you...
Why am i still in love with you

I miss you so much..

Why can't you feel and see it?
You will never understand how much of torture and suffering i am going through...


p/s: Why do you have to make me feel the way i feel?

I'm All About Loving You..it's always you..

All About Loving You
Bon Jovi

Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me and you
Mistakes you know I've made a few
I took some shots and fell from time to time
Baby, you were there to pull me through
We've been around the block a time or two
I'm gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how we've come this far
The answer's written in my eyes

Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

I've lived, I've loved, I've lost, I've paid some dues, baby
We've been to hell and back again
Through it all you're always my best friend
For all the words I didn't say and all the things I didn't do
Tonight I'm gonna find a way

Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

You can take this world away
You're everything I am
Just read the lines upon my face
I'm all about lovin' you

Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

All about lovin' you

I Will Be

For You...





Leona Lewis
I Will Be

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

[Bridge:]
I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

[Chorus:]
I will be, all that you want
And gather myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything OK

[Verse 2:]
I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me

[Bridge:]
And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

[Chorus]

[Ending bridge:]
Cause without you I cant breathe
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah

And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

[Chorus x2]


p/s: No matter how hard i try to let go, all that i ever wanted is still you..

Days has been hard without you...
I really miss you alot...
Why did you make me love you so much when you will let me go someday?

I've tried so hard to forget about you
But all i have in my mind are all memories of you and me together

Do you think is easy for me to forget?
Or is it easy for you to forget?

Memories for you may fade in time..
But it will be with me till the end of time...


p/s: Its so hard for me to contain my love for you..

Heartbroken

My heart is shattered into a million pieces
The feeling is so pain that it is indescribable
They always say, 'You'll find someone else better in time'
But i know for sure that you're the only person that can mend my broken heart

LDR

There are 2 types of people in a Long Distance Relationship

Type A: Absence makes the heart grows fonder..
Type B: Out of Sight, Out of Mind


I am Type A.
Which type are you?

Happy 23rd Birthday Eng Soon!

Happy 23rd Birthday Eng Soon!

An extra candle for you this year...as you're growing older..hehe


During the happier times...remembering like it was yesterday..

I can still remember us being in the bath tub and bathe together and now you're a grown up young man!! You'll be leaving very soon for studies in Aussie, and i wish you all the best, live life to the fullest and succeed in life!

p/s: still missing you like crazy

Happy Birthday Jason!

Happy 25th Birthday Jason!

On your birthday, i wish you pleasure and joy,
Another year of laughter, fun, surprises, love and happiness.

Never would i thought that your 24th birthday will be the last i get to celebrate with you. No matter what happened in the past, present and or will happen in the future, you'll always have a special place in my heart. You're my best'est' friend, always have and always will. Just know that i'm always here for you. All my best wishes for you...xoxo..love..


p/s:You're being missed here in Malaysia!

p/s: sorry i didn't know you quit smoking already!

In Loving Memory..

In Loving Memory Of Ng Shu Zanne
10/10/83 - 06/01/08




Happier times..

A day hasn't pass without your dearest friends thinking about you eventhough it has been a year since you've left us. We know you're in a better place now where pain isn't a feeling. Rest in peace my dear friend..

Passing each day..

It's so hard to live each day without thinking why...
What happened to us?

It's just damn hard!!

I'm so emotionally tired...


p/s: How can i move on when i'm still in love with you..